I held the knife in my hands for a long time without moving. In my mind surfaced the police report about the death of my only son. \u201cFall down the stairs.\u201d \u201cHit his head.\u201d \u201cNo signs of a struggle.\u201d<\/p>\n
Back then, it seemed strange to me that there were cuts on his palms \u2014 as if he had tried to grab onto something. They explained it to me: \u201cHe caught himself on the railing.\u201d I believed it. Now everything fell into place.<\/p>\n
The knife was wrapped in a thin baby cloth cut from the same blanket. Someone had carefully hidden it inside and sewn it back up, knowing that I would never cut open something I had knitted for my granddaughter. Someone counted on the fact that one day it would simply be thrown away \u2014 along with the secret.<\/p>\n
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I remembered that evening. The argument. The neighbors had heard shouting. My daughter-in-law said my son was drunk, stumbled, fell. But my son didn\u2019t drink. And the staircase in the house was too short for such a quick death.<\/p>\n
I slowly sat down on the edge of the bed. My hands were shaking. The knife was not the murder weapon directly. It was a threat. Or an attempt to defend himself.<\/p>\n
Now I understood why she threw the blanket away so abruptly. She wasn\u2019t getting rid of an old thing. She was getting rid of the last piece of evidence.<\/p>\n
I carefully put the knife aside. Not back into the blanket. Into a bag. Because now I knew: my son did not fall. Someone helped him.<\/p>\n