With shaking hands I pulled out an old bag from under the bed. Inside were some things: a couple of notebooks, a little box with trinkets, and my daughter’s phone. The very phone my husband had said was “lost.” My heart sank with a terrible premonition.

I turned the phone on — it still worked. The first thing I did was open the messages. There was a chat with her friend.

Fragments of the chat:

10:18 PM
Friend: What happened?

10:19 PM
Daughter: Dad yelled at me again. He said if Mom finds out even a single word, he’ll make sure we both regret it…

10:21 PM
Friend: God, you’re scaring me… Did he hit you?

10:24 PM
Friend: You have to tell your mom or go to the police, this is way too serious!

10:26 PM
Daughter: He said he’ll kill me if I tell anyone. I believe him, when he’s angry — he’s terrifying…

10:28 PM
Friend: But you can’t keep all of this inside…

10:29 PM
Daughter: I’m writing to you because I can’t tell anyone else. If something happens to me, know this — it was him.

 

These lines burned my hands like fire. Each message carved itself into my mind. I read them over and over, and images filled my head — her frightened eyes, how she had withdrawn more and more in the last months.

I didn’t want to believe back then that something serious was happening to her…

And in that moment I realized: my daughter did not leave on her own. She became the victim of the one I had believed to be the closest person in my life.