“I’ll get her,” Nancy volunteered, moving toward the staircase. “She’s probably in bed already. All that hosting really took it out of her.”
I couldn’t let them find me in the closet. I slipped out as quietly as I could, my joints protesting not from age, but from tension. I moved through the kitchen toward the back stairs—the “servant’s stairs” my grandmother called them. I’d never been more grateful for the house’s eccentric layout.
I made it to our bedroom and slipped under the covers fully clothed, forcing my breathing to slow, schooling my face into peaceful sleep. Moments later, I heard Nancy’s light knock. Heard the door open.
“She’s already asleep,” Nancy called down softly. “Looks like she’s out for the night.”
The door closed. Their voices faded as they retreated downstairs to drink my wine and celebrate my demise.
I lay there in the dark, in the bed I’d shared with Gerald for over four decades, and understood with crystal clarity that everything I’d believed about my life had been a carefully constructed lie. But I also understood something else. Something that made my hands stop shaking and my mind begin to work with a cold, clear precision I hadn’t felt in years.
They thought I was weak. They thought I was confused. They underestimated me because of my age, because I’d always been kind.
In the darkness, I reached for my phone, hidden under my pillow. My fingers moved with steady purpose as I opened my voice memo app. I’d pressed record before hiding in the closet, thinking only to catch Gerald’s surprised laughter at my silly hiding game.
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