My husband, Trevor, stood beside her. He looked like a man hollowed out by a spoon. His jaw was set in a hard, brittle line, and every time he glanced my way, his eyes were cold. He wasn’t standing with me. He was standing with her. He was the loyal guard dog, protecting his mother’s grief while his wife stood alone in the tundra of her own loss.

I knew differently. My body knew it. My heart knew it. The police said SIDS. My instinct screamed murder. But I had no proof. Just a hollow ache in my womb and the memory of Diane insisting, practically begging, to take the twins for the night so I could “get some rest.”